Catching up

No matter what, I feel like I'm always three steps behind like its a constant battle to catch up. This has always been a common theme through out my life whether as a child catching up with all the other kids in the playground (something I never mastered without ending up in the sick bay!), catching up academically from all the times I missed from school, living up to the expectations of being a teenager steps behind all my friends, at college keeping up with my work.

At the moment It's my constant tiredness that I think is fuelling the fact I feel like I'm five steps behind. There's always something that should of been done yesterday. I've always run on lists, but at the moment not even my lists are keeping me going. But where there is a will there's a way.

So an update from my last blog post, I've had a lot on and haven't been the best at sticking to being more active and losing weight but I've now set myself a goal I have a summer wedding to go to and Ive a beautiful dress I brought at the end of last summer in the sales because I simply loved it , so my goal is to get in the dress, I think this being my motivation will get me going and make me stick to it.

Blogging more . Well that went down the pan didn't it!  I'm going to keep on trying keep on top of it but as I say I'm always in catch up mode so it's rather difficult, keeping the balance but here's me starting, with another post so fingers crossed Ill add it to my list!

New Years book, I'll do a nice post about just this in a couple of days give me chance to get up to date a little! New Years aim - this one had me thinking quite a bit throwing around some ideas, but it was a decision easy made, my friend asked me if I'd do the race for life with her, this will be a huge physical challenge for me but something I'd love to do, Cancer has had an impact in both our lives and affects so many people I'd like to contribute to helping  research helping find a cure helping so that no-one else has to go through this awful battle. This also in my mind would like to be the start of me giving something back, I'd like to then go on to do more things like this if I manage it smoothly.

A catch up on me, I'm much the same as always, tiredness is my current issue, I never feel like I get enough or any good sleep, I get hit by this overwhelming tiredness mid afternoon and have to battle to get through the afternoon. I'm also a little upset at the moment, I recently had a birthday and it seems it suddenly becomes ok just to completely forget me, so called friends hey! Just gets me down that you can know someone for so long and then you move away to university, contact stops apart from visits home and birthday but now it seems ok to just forget my existence.  Shows who your real friends are.....